Author: Brandon Abbott

Death and Taxes

Death and Taxes

Josh stumbled to the bathroom and turned on the shower. For a good five minutes, he stood with his eyes closed, willing the hot water to wash away the restless night. He felt blindly for the soap, expecting to knock over one of the fifteen or so bottles that usually surrounded it. When his hand found nothing but a bar of Irish Spring, he opened his eyes. Something was seriously wrong.

Last week, Josh started shaving his head to save money on haircuts and shampoo. His wife, however, insisted on maintaining a strict beauty regiment of conditioners, shampoos, body washes, and lotions. Now, all of it was gone. Reality dawned on Josh. Ellen had left him.

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Praying for Gospel Conversations

September 23, 2018 | “Praying for Gospel Conversations” | Colossians 4:2-6 | The Church at Station Hill

Disciple-makers should pray for God to open doors for the word to be made clear in the lives of those yet to believe. The way we pray, live, and speak should reflect the priority of the gospel in our lives. We again ask the question, Who are the lost people you’re praying for and having gospel conversations with?

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(c) 2018 Brentwood Baptist Church. All rights reserved. Used with permission.

Jesus Glorified: The Transfiguration

July 16, 2017 | Jesus Glorified: The Transfiguration | Mark 9:2-13 | The Church at Station Hill

Peter, James and John experience a preview of the coming resurrection glory of Jesus, but must come down the mountain where they walk right into a spiritual crisis of belief. In this story, we see the importance of the rhythms of Christ-exalting worship and the spiritual warfare of prayer.

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A Close Shave

A Close Shave

Red licked his lips and eyed the aces in his hand. Peering over his cards, he watched the grimy gamblers around the table. Each of them returned his stare, keeping one eye on Red and one eye on the mound of money in the middle. Cigar haze danced with the dingy light of saloon chandeliers and played with Red’s imagination. The pot assumed a heavenly glow that whispered to Red, tempted him.

Go all in, it said. This is your ticket out of Widow’s Rest. No more watching over your shoulder. No more living under the rich man’s thumb.

The rich man watched him now, flipping his own cards with that same oppressive thumb. Jasper Tate owned the saloon and half the men at the table, including Red. But not for long. Soon the fair-haired barber from Biloxi would lay down his cards and walk away from this table and this town. He would be free, maybe even a little flush.

“Another round, fellas?” A buxom waitress in a constricting corset cut the tension and cozied up behind Red. She leaned over his shoulder, as if to press her own luck. Her smile was full of promise, and her tray was full of whiskey. Red looked down and liked his chances. Meanwhile, the pile of money harmonized with the dreamy dissonance of a distant upright piano and resumed its siren song.

Take it, Red. Take it all. Show Jasper Tate just who owns who.

Red slurred. “Darlin’, if you’re a sellin’, I’m a buyin’.” Emboldened by the virility of waiting wealth, he pushed his entire pile of money to the center of the table. “Drinks on me!” His arm extended in a show of magnanimity, and a cheer erupted from the crowd.

Then, without warning, the lady lunged forward, pinning Red against the table.

“Hey!” He grunted in protest, then froze as a precarious tray teetered over his shoulder.

“Watch it, Mister!” the waitress shouted at a faceless cowboy who shoved his way past. Inertia took over, and the top-heavy tart lost her balance. Whiskey rained, glass shattered, and Red’s cards, like Red’s future, flew out of his hands and across the prodigious kitty. As the table tumbled, one of his aces lodged in the woman’s cleavage, falling – like the kitty – hopelessly out of reach.

“Nooooooo!” Red cried. His eyes burned from the fumes of the whiskey. But he drew his tears from a different well. Red had mined the mountain called Fortune. And once again, Fortune failed to deliver. Tears followed a worn path down his face, like a stream cutting through the mountainside, eroding Fortune, eroding hope. Like a forgotten 49er, Red was on his knees sifting silty pans of disappointment. The mountain was made of it, and so was Red.

“Mr. Graves!” someone shouted from the back of the room.

“What?” the groggy old man grumbled and shifted in the barber’s chair.

“Wake up. I need some help,” the distant voice pleaded.

“What is it?” Red slurred his words again, but this time for real. Perfumed haze, like smelling salts, smacked him back to a waking reality. He rubbed his eyes. They really were burning, but not from whiskey. “What in tarnation is that stench?”

“It’s bad, sir. The whole case busted.”

“Open the door, you coot!” Red choked out. “I can’t breathe.”

Harley Atwater stumbled to the door and flung it open. The room imploded with dust as precious oxygen rode in on fire-breathing steeds of hot, Arizona air.

“Fan it, Harley. Fan the blasted door.” Red covered his mouth with his apron and wrestled with the arm of the recliner. Righting himself, he saw the labels on the broken glass. “Thayer’s Witch Hazel Tonic.” Noxious fumes wafted through the twelve square, two-chair barbershop as the remains of fourteen containers spilled across the floor. A blood-red cloud spread in a circle and tattooed raw wooden planks.

“Harley, you addle-headed moron!”

“I know, I know, Mr. Graves,” Harley said and coughed. He spat and tried to catch his breath. “It weren’t my fault, though. Heflin Spears knocked ‘em over. Honest!”

“Spears? Why?” Red coughed again too.

“He just stormed out so fast. Didn’t look where he was goin’, I guess.” Harley worked the door like a butter churn.

Red wiped water from his bloodshot sockets and tried to solve the sleepy puzzle in his mind. “But I didn’t even hear him come in.”

“Well,” Harley began, “You was sleeping.” He stopped churning as if he just remembered something important to his cause. “And you was a smiling.” He smiled himself and laughed, despite the predicament. “That’s right, Mr. Graves. Smiling like a little baby nursing at his mama’s bosom.” He puckered in a ridiculous gesture.

Understanding descended on Red like Sitting Bull on Custard. “You tried to give him a shave, didn’t you?”

Harley dropped his hands and answered the accusation with sheepish contrition. “Yessir. Yessir, I did.”

“And how far did you make it this time, young Harley?”

“Third stroke.” Harley answered proudly.

“Before you nicked him?” If so, that was an improvement on which Red would not have wagered.

“No.” Harley coughed again. “Before I drew blood. That’s when he jumped up and said –,” Harley rubbed his nervous hands together and tried to remember the exchange. “He said, ‘Blast it all to –’ well, you know. Then, ‘I’m a-gonna leave here and fetch my iron. Then we’ll see if you can sit still.’ Because, see, I kept telling him to try and sit –”

“I got it,” Red interrupted. “The man’s lucky. You could’ve slit his throat like you did Miller’s sow.”

“Now, that weren’t my fault, neither.” Harley defended himself with an indignant finger. “That practice pig was too fidgety for shavin’.”

“That pig feared for its very life, and with good reason. It was good sausage, though.”

Harley demurred. “I think I cost you a customer.”

Red considered the supplies spilling across the floor. “I think you cost me a dollar and forty cents is what you did! I swear, I oughta hide you for this.”

“I’m awful sorry. Say, I’ll go get a crate and a mop and clean this up.”

“You do that.”

“Mr. Graves,” Harley said as he whirled around. “I think next time, if I just angle it a little better –”

“Mop. Now!”

“Yessir.” Harley hurried off.

Red rocked his head on its post and tried to dispel the rigamortis from his afternoon nap. His dry mouth tasted like a buzzard’s breakfast. He walked carefully past the spill and pulled a flask from his coat. He took a drink and watched out the window as the heat imposed its will on deserted streets. Waiting for customers who didn’t come, he held the liquor in his mouth and let it burn. Then he choked it down and took another swig, anything to wash away the dreamy residue of reality. He didn’t want to think about Tate and his thumb the rest of the afternoon.

But he didn’t have to. Suddenly, he had other things to worry about.

“Harley!” he yelled. The flask fell to the floor, and whiskey added its own color to the blood red planks. “What day is it?” Red trembled in disbelief as he watched the Twitch ride into town. This was no dream. This was a nightmare.

#

Tucker “the Twitch” Maynard was a legendary outlaw, at least in Widow’s Rest. He was too ugly and simple for the world-wide fame that belonged to Billy the Kid or Hoodoo Brown. But most of the widows in Widow’s Rest owed their titles and their tears to his erratic temper and unpredictable pistol.

Red was betting on an inside straight the first time he encountered the half-crazed outlaw. Justo Fuente, an aspiring bandito himself, was about to take Red’s money with little more than a pair of tens when he suddenly pulled the brim of his sombrero over his dark eyes and buried his face deep in his cards. Red, hunched over with his back to the door, noticed Justo’s fingers inching toward the six-shooter strapped to his waist. This made Red want to reach for his own gun, but he never carried one. He did keep a Henry rifle in the back of the barbershop, a leftover from his days with the Confederacy. But he had never fired it. As a medic, he had never needed to. Of course, he had never met the Twitch. Clearly, Justo had.

A fog of silence fell over the saloon. The only sound came from the irregular gait of heavy boots limping across a creaky, wooden floor. Shump, drag, shump. For ten full minutes, an eternity, the room died.

Red’s curiosity held claim over his common sense. Call it a character flaw. So, of course, he glanced over his shoulder. But his timing was worse than his card playing, and he instantly locked eyes with Tucker Maynard.

What Redmond saw in that briefest of moments was not a mere man. Instead, he beheld what that voodoo queen from New Orleans had once called the “black djab,” an evil spirit of darkness she warned would come knocking upon Red’s door one fateful day. As a young boy, Red had dismissed the ancient mambo’s musings. But she had also foretold of his life as a fou kwafè, a foolish barber. Now, looking back in time and into the eyes of Tucker Maynard, the old hag seemed downright prescient. Maynard was a giant, amorphous darkness beneath an oily hat, with renegade hair that, frankly, needed a trim. Red resented life, but he feared death. And the image before him was death incarnate.

The barber turned back to his cards and, like everyone else, held his breath. When the Twitch drank his fill, he pushed back the stool with a screech, released a seismic belch, and limped out. Shump, drag, shump. The sound alone raised the rust-colored hairs on the back of Red’s ivory neck. He sat paralyzed by the pulse of that irregular gait. Without so much as a word, the dreaded djab of Widow’s Rest had cast a voodoo spell on ole Red de kwafè. Shump, drag, shump. Red would remember that sound as long as he lived, however long that might be.

“A mule,” Justo whispered, breaking the silence.

“What’s that?” Red whispered back. Eventually, low murmurs crescendoed into a steady roar of relief around the entire room. Then Justo continued.

“A mule. Dis is why he leemps,” his compadre explained. “But why he keells,” Justo shook his head, “ees longer estory. Gringo is muy loco, I tell you.”

Justo’s fingers, now trembling slightly, left his gun and labored to deliver a steady dose of tequila to his lips. A heavy sigh signaled his reluctance to recount the story. He threw his head back and downed a shot of medicine. Then he peered through his empty shot glass, as if looking back in time, and somehow found the strength to begin.

“Was in de mountains of East Kentucky on coldest night of longest winter en seis décadas. Wind howling, esnow blinding. Ees kind of night animals don’ survive. Muy frio!” he wheezed. He shivered and slammed the shot glass on the table.

According to Justo, this inauspicious evening found homely Celia Maynard, alone and unsettled, with a low turmoil in her gut which she feared to be more than her chamber pot could bear. By the time she made it to the door, she could hardly stand. Pain-ridden and oblivious to the elements, she stumbled barefoot through winter’s worst to an outhouse more than fifty frigid feet from her front door. But what she mistook for irritable bowels was instead the painful miracle of labor. And thus Tucker Maynard tumbled unassisted and head first into the bottom of a frosty latrine.

Poor Celia, the haggard, yet portly matron, could hardly claim fault for such an oversight, novice as she was to childbearing. Tucker was the offspring of a passing tragedy on horseback and was not planned, expected, nor wanted. Celia didn’t even know she was pregnant.

“That’s terrible,” Red had exclaimed.

“Sí. Infortunado. Eet gets worse,” Justo frowned as he dealt a new hand. From day one, little Tucker bore the unfortunate resemblance of his incidental outlaw father, even after his mother cleaned him up. With each passing day, he was a constant reminder of the worst night of Celia’s sad life, the night of Tucker’s birth coming in a close second. Yet, as difficult as motherhood was for the solitary spinster, she nonetheless tried to do right by the child. She nursed and knitted away his needs, even attending to his midnight cries, despite her own exhaustion.

One night, however, Tucker’s wails reached a new level of persistence. All night long, he screamed for his mother’s attention. But after a full day of pushing needles and thread with bleeding fingers, Celia was simply too tired to hear her child’s duress. The next morning, the scream she heard was her own when she recoiled in horror at the sight of a fugitive cottonmouth nestled next to Tucker in his crib. Two small puncture wounds flared on the infant’s thighs. But they were the only evidence of injury.

“For Tucker,” Justo clarified. He looked around as if sharing a secret. “De snake,” he whispered, “was deed.”

As young Tucker grew into a boy, signs of venomous corruption began to surface. A hobbled hound, a nervous goat, a bare-backed chicken, were all indicators that the Maynard homestead was now a very scary place to live. Even Thimble, Celia’s shorthaired tabby, cashed in all nine lives before its master found it starved, frozen, and swinging by a broken tail.

“Pobre gatito,” Justo wept openly then. “What man does dees ting to a little kitten?” After a few moments, Justo took a deep breath through his nose and let it out with another sigh. “How many?”

Red looked at his cards. “I’ll take two.”

“Okay.” Justo nodded and dealt two cards. Red was glad the draw was finally catching on out here. He had played this way on the riverboats back home, and with full decks of fifty-two as well. So it surprised him upon his arrival in Widow’s Rest to learn that tens to aces with no draw was still the local custom. In Red’s opinion, a man ought to have a second chance, a way to overcome whatever bad hand he held. Not that it was helping him now. His new cards were worse than the ones he had just given back.

As Justo drew his own cards, he fell into a pensive silence.

“So, the mule?” Red asked. After a moment, Justo wiped his eyes and resumed his sad tale.

“De señorita, she died. Officially, consumption. But you ask me,” Justo’s voice grew strained with contempt, “I say she died of a broken heart.” He shook his head and crossed himself with his free hand. “And little niño, older and meaner, finally met som’ting as mean and as stubborn as he was.”

“The mule.”

“Sí. One swift kick to de head.” Justo slapped his hands together loud enough to draw attention. Hatred filled the blacks of his eyes as his voice grew louder and louder. “Little diablo awoke two days later with a limp leg and a nervous twitch that plagues him to dis very day!” He slapped his hand on the table, rattling the glasses, which by now had accumulated significantly. Then, as pleasantly as a spring breeze on a Sunday afternoon, he asked, “Raise?”

“Fold.”

Justo smiled as he raked in the last of Red’s money. He seemed to feel much better. Red did not.

“Years later,” Justo added as he stood to leave, “he kill de mule.” Then, pausing for dramatic effect, he continued. “And de mule’s owner.” Justo drained the last of his tequila and pointed a wobbly finger at Red. “Amigo! You no go near dees man. Comprende?” Red nodded. Nothing lost in translation there.

But that wasn’t the end of the story. Red would later learn from others that, to date, Tucker Maynard had killed forty-one men. That was, of course, in addition to the mule and the cat. Sadly, due to the aforementioned infirmity for which he would eventually receive his nickname, almost half of the Twitch’s kills were completely unintentional. One did not want to be in the line of fire when Tucker’s twitch took control.

Since that day with Justo Fuente, Redmond took great pains to steer clear of Tucker Maynard. It wasn’t hard. The man might disappear for months on end. Other than operating as a hired gun for Jasper Tate, no one really knew what the Twitch did with his time. But if a poor soul were to get himself in too deep with the Colonel, that pale horse of death was certain to ride into town. Plenty of men owed money to Jasper Tate. But currently there was only one resident of Widow’s Rest in so deep as to enlist the services of the Twitch. And that man was Redmond Graves.

#

“Harley!” Where was that boy? Off barkin’ at some knot, undoubtedly. “Harley, confound it. Get in here now!”

A calamity exploded from the back room as Harley stumbled in, pulling up his suspenders. Blood from his face ran down onto his undershirt. He had been practicing again. It might have helped if the boy had any facial hair at all. But at this rate, scar tissue was likely to prevent such a reality.

“Sorry, Mr. Graves. I was out in the necessary practicing my angle. Let me get that mop.”

“Forget the blasted mop. I got bigger problems. What’s today?”

“Why, it’s Wednesday.”

“No, dadblame it. What day is it?”

“Oh, well, that would be the 31st of July, I believe, Mr. Graves.”

“The 31st . . .” Red trailed off. Then, snapping back to action, he said, “Harley, fetch me the Henry.”

“The what?” Harley asked, buttoning his shirt.

“The gun, you boot licker. The gun!”

“Oh, right. The gun.” Then after a moment of recognition, he gasped. “Is it Spears? Did he come back for me?”

Some apprentice. Like teats on a boar hog. One might have thought taking Tate’s hapless nephew onto the payroll would have at least bought Red a little more time. Clearly not. July 31st marked the end of the latest extension on his debt, the last extension, Tate had warned. In sheer desperation, Red asked if there was anything else he could do for the Colonel?

“Well,” Tate had suggested, “I do have this nephew.”

Honestly, Red could deal with Harley Atwater in the second chair. Everybody had to start somewhere. But now, Harley was asking for more than a seat in the shop. Much more. Was Tate behind that, too? It was another problem altogether, but a problem that would have to wait for later, at least now that the Twitch was in town.

“Spears ain’t a-gonna shoot you, you fool. But I might if you don’t get outta here this second. Now git!” Harley did, with as much grace as he entered.

Red ran to the window again and surveyed the street. Maynard had disappeared, for now. But Red knew at any second the Twitch could walk up, unholster his gun, and collect Tate’s debt in blood as crimson as the witch hazel drying on the floor below.

Blood was all Red had left to offer. The shop was worthless. Tate could have it if he wanted it. There was only one thing in this life that Red truly cared about now. And there was no way Tate or anyone else was taking that away. It was the only thing he had left, and he would protect it at all costs. Compulsively, Red looked out the window once more. Still deserted. He walked back to his chair and picked up his straight razor. As he considered his plight, he worked the blade across the leather strop and listened for the telltale shump, drag, shump that would sound the end for Redmond Graves.

He should have listened to his wife and stayed in Biloxi. His first-floor shop in the luxurious Magnolia Hotel was a relative palace compared to his current sidewalk shanty. Some evenings, after spending all day trimming up the well-tipping tourists, Red would take a walk along the water and watch the oyster schooners drift back inland to Black Bay Harbor. He would listen to the waves lap against the Mississippi shore and stare at the setting sun as it rippled on the Gulf’s horizon. Sparkles of light glimmered on the water like gold floating out to sea.

Red was already hearing whispers of waiting wealth in faraway lands. Everyone, it seemed, was talking about California, Nevada, Oregon, and the precious metal that apparently lined the streets for the taking. Time was suddenly short. Red knew he could stare all he wanted. But his own ship would never sail into the Bay of Biloxi. His ship was somewhere out west, and he had to find it.

“It’s a sure thing, Lillian,” he had told his wife. “I can’t lose.” But he did. The trip lasted months, as they sailed from Biloxi to Galveston, then up the Rio Grande to El Paso. From there, they continued the arduous journey by stage coach along the Oxbow across the desert. That’s when Lillian began to get sick. The fever was first, then the headaches and the vomiting. By the time they’d crossed into New Mexico, rashes had formed on her wrists and ankles, and Red knew something was seriously wrong. They pressed on as far as Arizona before he sent the coach on its way and rented a room in Widow’s Rest. With any luck, Lillian could convalesce and recover. Then they could resume their journey. But soon it became apparent the only “sure thing” was that Lillian would die in Widow’s Rest, Arizona.

Redmond Graves had wanted more from life than a barbershop in Biloxi could provide. In exchange, life had demanded more from Redmond Graves than he’d been willing to give. He was devastated. Gone was his will to wind westward. He had traveled his last mile. So he buried Lillian and stayed in Widow’s Rest.

To earn a living, Red returned to the trade that made him and hung out his barber’s shingle. Yet, while his quest for the West had ended, his dream of fortune was still at large. Not even the loss of Lillian could hamper the conviction that he was meant for more. And since he could not mine the great mountains of California, Red started digging for gold in the saloon across the street.

He had to admit he enjoyed the warmth of the whiskey and maybe the company of the sporting women. But even now, a full ten years since his beloved Lillian’s death, their company was all he could bring himself to enjoy. What he supposed he truly lusted after was the gamble, the pure chance that on any given night a fortune could change. A man could pan for days or dig his way through a mountain. But all it took was one good hand, and a fellow could instantly be somebody. A sharecropper could turn sole proprietor. A blacksmith might forge a new future. And a barber from Biloxi? Well, who knew what ship might sail into the harbor? But digging for gold leaves a lot of holes, and Red had dug himself so deep that he might as well be standing in his own grave.

Red stopped his stropping and checked the blade. Sharp enough to slice. He should hide this from Harley. He walked over to his safe in the corner. He had a small stack of bills in there. How many times had he thought of just grabbing the money and pulling up stakes? But he couldn’t. One thing kept him from riding off into the sunset, one thing he had to protect.

Without warning, the door flew open. Red jerked around, ready to fling the razor sight unseen.

“Daddy?”

Red gripped the back of his chair and exhaled. “Dang it all, girl. You scared me half to death.”

“Why, land sakes, Daddy. Looks like you’ve been killing hogs in the floor. Or bathin’ ‘em in after shave from the smell of it. Gracious.”

Belle Graves, beautiful in her decorative polonaise, took a step back and waved a gloved hand past her nose. Red hardly recognized her anymore. Gone was the little girl who sat in the second chair and brushed her dolly’s hair while he tended to his customers. He knew that girl well, had held her and fed her and protected her. She had slept in his lap across a vast eternity of land and sea. She had clung to his leg and cried silent tears as her mother said goodbye.

Now, in her place, stood a grown woman who was foreign to him. She spent her days flitting about town, dressed up like some high-class debutant. The clothes had cost Red money he didn’t have. And her flirting was attracting suitors she didn’t need. She was still biddable enough, he supposed. But on some things she had become obstinate to a fault. Red, for example, had been suggesting for months that it was finally time to move on from Widow’s Rest. But Belle was digging in her heels. With increasing urgency, he had implored her to pack her bags. It wasn’t safe for him here, not anymore. But biddable had its limits. And once a girl flirts with her future, she’ll be hanked if she’ll listen to her daddy about a darn thing. She had found more than a reason to stay. She had found her man.

“I found it, Mr. Graves. I found it.” Harley blew into the room with a mop in one hand and a rifle in the other, both of which he held by the barrel. Was the boy begging for a hole in the ceiling? Or in his head? The latter, Red thought, threatened to do the least damage. Harley stopped short, however, when he saw Belle. Without another word, he smiled. Unfortunately, Belle smiled back.

“Well, ain’t you a belvedere,” she laughed. “In all my born days. Are you going cleaning or going hunting?” She laughed with the ease of someone who didn’t know her father was about to get his flint fixed.

Harley leaned close to Red and whispered, “Any sign of Mr. Spears?”

“Give it to me.” Red ordered. Harley held out the mop. The boy’s brain must have stopped growing somewhere between hay and grass. “Not the mop, dad blame it. The gun. Give me the gun.” He jerked it out of Harley’s hands.

“Why, Daddy, what has you in such a ruckus?” Belle took the mop from Harley and sat it against the wall. She brushed stray bangs from the boy’s forehead and patted his chest.

Red checked the rifle’s chamber.

“Harley, honey. Your face.” Belle reached out to touch the shredded flesh. Haley winced. “Why, you’re getting so much better!” She squealed with delight and kissed him on the forehead. “I’m so proud of you. You’ll make a great barber one day.” She cut her eyes at Red. “And a great husband, too, if my daddy ever gives you his permission, that is.”

Red answered with the click-clack of the rifle’s lever.

Belle giggled and handed Harley back his mop. “Daddy, I’m headed over to -–“

“Go home, Belle.”

“But Daddy, I was just over to –-”

“Go. Home. Belle. I’ll explain later.” At least he hoped he would. His daughter looked at her suitor for support. But she would get none. Harley just shrugged. The sassy smile turned to pout as Red’s daughter, still biddable to a degree, acquiesced, and turned to leave.

Red followed her out the door. He looked around for signs of danger. With the streets clear, he grabbed his daughter by the arm. “Belle, listen. Get the bags ready. We’ve got to leave. I’m closing up shop early. I’ll pick you up in the wagon, and we’ll catch a train in Winslow.”

Belle pulled her arm away. “Daddy, we’ve discussed this. I’m not leaving.”

“Belle,” Red growled. He turned back to catch Harley bobbing his head in the window. Caught in the act, the boy resumed mopping with great abandon. Red turned back to Belle. “Now, you listen here, young lady. There are things afoot. Things you don’t know. Now, just do what I say.”

“And there are things you don’t know, Daddy. I love Harley. And I aim to marry the man. I have dreams for my future.”

“And you think I don’t?”

“You chased your dreams, Daddy. And look where it got us.” Red winced at the implication. “Now I have a chance to start over. With a husband and a home of my own.” It was her turn to gaze into the cloudy window. “A home with little Harleys running around.”

Red threw up in his mouth a little. “That man’s got Tate blood.”

“That man’s got rich blood,” she retorted.

“As opposed to your blood?”

“Daddy, that’s not what I meant.”

“I know,” Red lied. But she was right. She didn’t need him anymore. The Tate name alone would mean her security, perhaps her fortune. And the connection would ensure her safety, even with a price on her father’s head. But Red had lost so much. He wasn’t prepared to put his own daughter in the middle of the table. He wasn’t prepared to lose her to Tate, too.

Belle stood on her toes and knowingly kissed Red’s cheek. She did not say the word, but he heard the “goodbye” all the same. Usually, all Red lost was money. This hurt a whole lot worse. As she walked away, Red took a breath and went back inside. He slammed the door and glared at Harley, who pretended not to notice and mopped like a mad man.

The next hour crawled. Red made mental preparations, listing his options. He still wasn’t sold on a single ticket out of town. But what else could he do? He had lost Lillian, and now he had lost Belle. Maybe. As he thought, he listened through the silence for any sign of impending doom.

Meanwhile, the afternoon sun beat down upon the parched earth and shot heat through the uncovered windows. Even the air decided it was too hot to move. Occasionally, Red pulled out his watch to check the time, which he typically found to be five minutes later than the last time he checked.

Harley was eventually able to clear the mess. But the red stains and antiseptic odor lingered. Harley also lingered, but in the back room for fear of retribution from one Heflin Spears, and maybe from Red, too. This was fine with Red, who needed time to think. He eyed the rifle, the unfired rifle, leaning in the corner. Unlike Tucker Maynard, Red had never killed a thing. Even Harley had more blood on his hands than Red did. Of course, most of it was his own. Red doubted his own finger could ever pull the trigger if it came down to it. Even on Harley Atwater. Well, perhaps. And even if he could bring himself to do it, he doubted he could be fast enough to match the speed, intentional or otherwise, of the great djab, the amorphous blackness that was the Twitch.

The Twitch. He was still thinking the man’s name when he heard the boots outside. Shump. Drag. Shump. That was not Belle. That was not Spears. That was death at Red’s door. He froze with paralytic terror. This was it. This was the end. His mind reached for the gun, but his hands knew he’d waited too long. The door was already swinging open. A gunfight was a losing proposition. He turned to his cash safe. How much was Tate paying? Did he have enough to pay more? That was about as likely as Red surviving to see August 1st.

“You open?” a cold, steely voice said from beneath an oily hat.

Red turned to face the angel of death. “Well, yes, sir. I guess we are. I was thinkin’ of closing up, but it’s still early yet, as you can see. Still plenty of daylight left. So, maybe not.” Red was a panicked idiot. What would he do? Leaving was now off the table. Oh, Heaven help him. He was in a box. Redmond Graves was in a bad box to be sure.

“Well, are you, or ain’t you?”

“We, um, are. I mean, yes.”

Maynard shook his head and limped to the first chair. As he took off his hat, Red thought he could see the faint indention of a mule’s hoofprint on the corner of the man’s forehead.

“I need a scrapin’.”

“You don’t say? Well, we can do that. Yes, sir.” Red tossed a cape over his customer, which Maynard immediately threw to the ground. He grunted his displeasure as he caressed the gun at his hip. Red apologized and slowly lowered the back of the chair. Maynard sniffed.

“Smells like a bed house on nickel night in here.”

“My apologies,” offered Red. “A small mishap. Say, you want a trim, too?” He really did need one, Red thought.

Maynard sat in the chair and leaned back. “No. Just the shave. A real close shave, too. Got a meetin’ tomorrow morning.”

Red busied himself making lather in a bowl. “A meeting, you say. Anyone important?”

“Colonel Tate. Some fool’s in dutch. Colonel wants me to collect.” Maynard offered his chin and closed his eyes.

Red dropped the bowl with a clatter and burned himself with steam as he readied the hot towel. “Say, that sounds bad for that feller.”

“It ain’t good.”

“Reckon who that feller is? Why, I sure hope he ain’t one of my payin’ customers.” Red laughed nervously, but Maynard did not reciprocate.

“I’ll find out tomorrow. Now shave, dadblame it. I ain’t got all day.”

Red felt some relief as he started to wrap the hot towel around Maynard’s filthy face. There was still time. But time for what? Red was drawing a blank as dust and tobacco juice stained the towel’s fabric. That’s when it happened.

At once, the outlaw jerked away the towel and glared at Red. This is it! Oh, dear God, Red prayed, I don’t want to die. Hail Mary, full of grace. He backed up, closed his eyes, and waited for the worst. But nothing happened. After an eternal second, Red cracked a lid to peek.

Tucker Maynard’s eyebrows began to seesaw up and down. Then his eyes rolled back in his head. Red stared with morbid curiosity as Maynard’s chin began to quiver. The jingle of spurs indicated the man’s feet were also involved. Then his knees bent upward and his hips jerked to one side in a convulsion that thrust the outlaw’s torso forward and slammed him back into the chair, rocking it on its pedestal. The episode concluded with one massive tremor, followed by a series of short quivers that left the outlaw breathless and silent. Struggling to sit up, Maynard finally spoke.

“Now you listen here,” he threatened, still catching his breath. The whole thing was much more violent that Red had imagined. No wonder he killed that mule. “I get one nick from that blade of yours, and I’ll put a bullet between your –” His eyes fluttered as he jerked again. Then he shouted, “-– between your eyes! You hear me?”

“Of course,” Red offered. He was suddenly thankful he didn’t own a cat. The Twitch finally settled back into the chair and closed his eyes. Red turned to grab a fresh towel and rewrapped Maynard’s face.

Once again, Red calculated his odds. He could just give this man his shave, close the shop, and ride off into the sunset. This, of course, assumed he didn’t cut the man mid-twitch and end up on the floor next to the witch hazel stains. He’d have a good twelve-hour head start, enough to hop a train and disappear forever.

But what about Belle? Could he fold with her on the table? She was all he had left. Red would rather die, the odds of which were increasing by the minute. Oh, he rued the day he let Atwater into his shop and into his life. The boy had made a mess of both. If it weren’t for that nervous bird, the Graves family would already be long gone from Widow’s Rest.

Red removed the towel and began to lather Maynard’s face and neck. The smell of sweat and horse manure mixed with the aftershock of the witch hazel. Red wiped his hands and took up his razor. He sat the blade against his thumb and admired the edge. Sharp enough to slice.

The phrase rattled in his mind for a moment before resurrecting a distant memory, a story he’d read in the Daily Picyaune back in ’42. Some man, a baker by the name of Martin something or another, got his throat slashed with a razor, right across the jugular. They caught the man that did it. Sent him away to St. Louis on the Monmouth steamer boat. Red remembered that man’s name just fine. Mr. W. Woodhall, the baker’s father-in-law.

He could just kill Maynard now. One swipe across the throat and call it a night. But Red would likely not be any better at killing than he was at gambling. He’d botch the job and end up shot or hung or both. He lowered the blade to the neck of Tucker Maynard, but jerked it back as his customer suffered yet a third lingering spasm. He’s worse than Miller’s sow, Red thought.

That’s when it came to him, a kind of epileptic epiphany. While Maynard’s eyes remained closed, Red’s were suddenly wide open. He sat the blade on the counter and turned to the safe. Quietly, he opened it and extracted the small contingency of cash. Then he picked up the gun and stepped in front of Maynard, just in case. With one hand, he raised the barrel toward the chair. With the other, he opened the door and grabbed his coat. Red was going all in. He might not have a full house, and that was what it was. But currently, he held a pair of jokers, and he meant to discard at least one of them. He shouted toward the back room.

“Harley! You’ve got a customer!”

The end

Bishop

Bishop

Wynn hooked a mostly clean fingernail under the chrome tab of the tape measure. The internal spring tack-tack-tacked as yellow inches emerged. Six, eight, ten, twelve. He stopped, had an idea, but let it go. The metal strip zipped back into the case, rocking his hand with a thwack. He did it again, careful not to cut his already dry and cracked fingers. Tack-tack-tack. Zip. Thwack. He waited. Nothing.

The click of the punch clock on his wall told him he had just wasted another half-hour of his day. In his mind, the woman from last week’s self-development seminar accused him of “activity avoidance.” Boy, there was three hours of activity Wynn was never getting back. No avoiding that. As a rule, he did the hard things first, paid the bills before he bought the boat, mowed the yard before he hit the lake. But what he had to do now, well, how do you start a thing like that?

Read the whole story at The Eunoia Review.

The Red Brick

The Red Brick

“I see Claire signed your cast.”

“Yup. Hey, Dad. Help me find a red, four-by-four brick.”

“I’ll try. There are a lot of legos here.”

“Dad, it’s not that hard.”

“Okay. So, did you ask her to sign it?”

“No. She likes to sign casts.”

“She does?”

“Yeah. That’s what she said.”

“Oh, I see. Hey, I found a red brick.”

“Cool. Thanks, Dad.”

“You’re welcome, son.”

Moses Called

February 18, 2018 | “Moses Called” | Exodus 3:14-15 | The Church at Station Hill

In dramatic fashion, God begins to reveal His evacuation plan by calling Moses to be His mouthpiece to Pharaoh and the Egyptians. God wants Moses to be sure to communicate exactly Who it is sending him and Who it is that will rescue them: I AM. God has been their God. God will be their God. God IS there God now.

Watch the full series, Exodus: The Evacuation Experiment.

I Am Clay

I Am Clay

Becoming a believer in Jesus Christ can be earth-shattering on a number of levels.  But even then, it is just the beginning. What follows is a long process of being formed, conformed, and transformed. And it takes more than fifteen days, to be sure.  But for some of us, it might look something like this.

Day 1

I am Clay, and life is good. The lights are low, and so are the expectations. I have nowhere to go and nothing to do except to hang out in my cool, comfortable, carved-out cubby. All I need is to be.

This is my world. The only one I know. And I can’t imagine a world any better than this.

Day 2

Something isn’t right. I feel unsettled. I’m starting to hear rumblings and feel pressure. Not used to that. I keep thinking it will all go away, that soon things will get back to normal. But now, I’m beginning to wonder. In fact, I’m wondering about a lot of things. Like, what if there is something else out there, something I can’t see from here?

Wait. Forget I said that. It’s just paranoia. I need to stay grounded and trust in what I can see and what I can feel. That’s what’s real. Anything else is just – wait, what was that? Whoa. It’s happening again. Rumbling. Crunching. Okay, am I going crazy? I think my walls just moved. Forget paranoia. Something is definitely wrong here.

What am I saying? No, it’s not. Hold on to what I know. Hold on to what I know.  There is nothing else. I am Clay. Life is good. I am Clay. Life is good.

Okay, it’s over. See? I knew it was nothing. I’m making more of this whole thing than I need to. No use in cracking up. I just need to relax. It’s all over now.

Or is it?

Day 3

Crisis! The sky is literally falling! The floor is shaking, and so am I! What is happening? I’m starting to – I don’t know what this is. It’s like I’m – moving! I’ve never moved before. Oh, I’m dizzy. I don’t like this. Who are you? What are you doing to me? Put me back! Put me back right now!

Gasp. What is that? Is that – air? I thought that was just a fairy tale. You mean that stuff is real? How do you, cough, do this? I can’t, what do you call it? Breathe?

And now my eyes. Oh, they’re burning. Those lights are so bright. Where’s the darkness? I can’t see it anymore. I can’t see anything anymore.

Day 4

I can see everything from here! Look at this place. It’s amazing. I had no idea any of this was real. My eyes don’t burn, and now they actually see things. THINGS! Sun and trees and grass and THINGS! Things are everywhere.

And so is the air. It’s all around me. And it’s not heavy. I had no idea how much pressure I was under all the time. But not anymore. It’s like a huge weight fell off.

I can’t imagine a world any better than this. I am Clay, and life is good.

Day 5

And I’m bored. Don’t get me wrong. I love the freedom. I love the view. But that’s just it. My view is full of things I don’t understand. Did you know I’m not the only one out here? No joke. We’re everywhere. One day, I just started looking around, like really looking around. And then I noticed them. Other Clays, just like me, all around me.  But they’re not just like me. Some of them actually move.

Well, they don’t move. They get moved. Something comes and picks them up. But that’s not all. They also get pressed and pulled and (you won’t believe this) cooked. Yeah, I know. Creepy. The first time that door opened and the heat hit me from across the room I was so glad it was them and not me. Does that sound bad?

At first I thought they just went away after that. Like, just gone. But now I’m not so sure. Check this out. I’m seeing more things, new things sitting around. And these things get picked up all the time. Sometimes they get filled with water. Sometimes they hold food. Sometimes they even hold other Clays, like me. And that’s not all. I noticed that one of those new things looked a little like the Clay that was next to me before.

Do you think it’s possible? Could it be the same Clay? It looked so different, but kind of the same too. How does that happen?

Could that happen to me? I’m a Clay. Could I be a thing that gets used like that other Clay? I have to say that would be better than just sitting here. Why am I still here on this table? Is there something wrong with me? Oh no. I’m corrupted Clay. Why else would I go through all that mess before just to just stay here with no shape and no purpose? Surely there’s another reason. This is so frustrating. The more I know, the more I don’t know.

Day 6

I’m so – touched. And moved. Is this it? Is it my time? I’m definitely not on the table anymore. Yes. Yes. I’m not corrupted Clay after all. This is what I’ve waited for. I wonder what thing will I be? I have so many great ideas. When do I get to choose? Oh, I can’t wait.

That feels good. Oh, not so hard. Yeah, that’s better. I guess I’m a little stiff from sitting still for so long. Okay, Clay, just relax and settle into the warmth. Things are going to be different from now on. I’m going to be great at this. No more sitting on a table and waiting. I’m going to be the best new thing ever.

Hey! That’s frigid! And wet! Was that necessary? A little warning would have been nice. Brrr. And hang on. You’re making a mess here. Look at me, I’m in pieces. I think we need to just go ahead and clean all this up and let me rest a bit. As exciting as this experience is, I’m feeling a little . . .

Sore! Wow, that’s hard. Okay, that stopped feeling good a long time ago. You can quit whenever you’re ready. Really, I’m not kidding here. That’s, ouch, enough. I think we should – um – I don’t think I can stretch that far.  No, I definitely can NOT stretch that far. Too much. Please stop before I – oh, now look at what you’ve done. I’m completely broken! Never mind the water now. I’ve got it coming out my eyes. What have you done? I don’t even look like the same Clay anymore. Is this why you took me from my dark little hole? To rip me to shreds? This is not what I wanted. I wanted to be something. To be useful. But no one can use this mess. Not now. Worst day ever!

Day 7

Hey, I look good. Nice work. I mean, I know what I said, but that wasn’t doubt as much as it was anxiety. It wasn’t easy. And I’m still wondering if perhaps there was a less painful way. But in the end I have to admit that I see what you did there. (I’m still glad it’s over.) At least I didn’t have to go through that whole cooking thing. Good to know I didn’t need that much work.

But, can you do me just one quick favor? I’m feeling a little weak. Can you just prop me up? Thanks. Listen, I can’t wait to get started. I know it won’t be easy, and I know sometimes things get broken. But if you’ll just show me what to do, I’m ready. More than ready. Just prop me up a little more, right there. Yeah, that’s better. Thanks.

Hey, is it me? Or is it getting hot in here?

Day 8

Shut that door! No way! I thought we were past this. Is it not enough that I gave up my hole in the ground for you? Are you not happy that I let you pull on me and tug me and rip me apart? Come on. Look at the sacrifices I’ve made. Why is this necessary? I’m a perfectly workable thing. You just have to use me. Go ahead. Give it a shot. I won’t let you down. PLEASE!

Ouch. Hot! Look. Surely there’s some other way. No, wait! I won’t survive this, and you know it! Ahhhh. Really hot! Stop it, please. I’m begging. Is that what you want? You want me to beg? Think of all we’ve been through together. Don’t you care about that? HOOOOTTTTT! Get me out of here. Put me back in the ground. I can’t do this. I don’t want to do this. Pleeeeaaasssee, noooooo!!!

Day 9

Most of the heat has gone away now. But it didn’t happen all at once. And I still smell like smoke.

Day 10

Wow. Things are busy today. Lots of activity. Not sure what’s going on. But we need to be careful, or someone’s going to break. Another Clay banged against me earlier. Not fun, but luckily I didn’t crack.

So, what’s going on here? All this work must be for something, and I want in. In fact, I don’t even care how anymore. (You may not realize I never got to choose what thing I wanted to be after that whole fiery furnace episode. But that’s okay. I know mistakes happen.) Honestly, I’m not even sure what I could do. I just want to be part. You know?

Day 11

Water again? I thought we were past – wow. This is different than before. Not over me, but inside me. Filling me. And staying. This is incredible. This is my purpose, to hold this water. There isn’t a part of me that isn’t touched by it. Finally. I am a thing. I love this.

I am Clay, and life is good.

Day 12

Hey, I know you. I remember your hands from, well, glad we made it through all that. Thanks for the water. I’m digging it. I knew you were up to something. But I never realized it was all about holding this water. I have to say, good call.  I could hang on to this water for like, ever. So what’s up? Me? What do you mean I’m up? Um, what are you doing? Whoa, careful. If you tip me too far, you’re going to spill my – WATER. Wait, that’s my water. You’re spilling it. You’re spilling my purpose. I love that water.

Well, would you look at that? When you turn me upside down, I can see more. And I just watched you just pour my water on that Clay on the table. That’s funny, he kind of looks like me before . . .

Day 13

So I’ve been thinking. When you poured the water over me, were you using the water you put inside some other thing? That’s pretty cool. And one more thing. Did that water make it easier for you to shape me? No? Oh, to make the stretching easier on me. Got it.

Day 14

More water. Hey, thanks. I was feeling a little dry. But back to those questions. So, the thing you used to dig me up, was that a thing you made too? A thing like, yeah, that one, the one that’s going into the fire right now. Did it use to be a Clay too?

Okay, I have to process this. It’s all starting to come into – whoa – there goes my water again. Another busy today, I guess. It’s almost like the more tools you have, the more Clays you can  . . .

Wait. So can I ask one more question? How many Clays are actually buried in the ground? And are they stuck like I was thinking that’s all there is? Yes, I know that’s two questions. But look, what if they don’t know there’s more? We have to tell them what’s up here. They’ve got to know. We’ve got to get them out. Like right now!

Time? For what? Listen, this is serious. It is dark down there. And cold, and heavy, and you’re talking about time? To do what?

Oh, that’s right. The drenching and pulling and pressing and (help me) cooking. So this Clay I’m pouring water on right now, he’s going through that same thing isn’t he? And you’re going to use him too, aren’t you? To dig or hold or pour.

I took time. And so will he.

Day 15

Good morning. I am ready. Fill me. Tip me over. Let me see all the different things you’re making and all the different ways you’ll use them. Rescue some Clays today, then pour me out over them. Over, and over, and over again.

I am Clay, and life is good.

The end

The Wind and the Waves

The Wind and the Waves

Daily Reading:

[biblegateway passage=”Ephesians 4:11-16″]

 

Key Verse:

[readolog_blockquote ]14 Then we will no longer be little children, tossed by the waves and blown around by every wind of teaching, by human cunning with cleverness in the techniques of deceit.[/readolog_blockquote]

Devotion:

As I write this, I am at the beach. The sky is clear, the breeze is light, and I might stay all afternoon.

Yesterday, however, was a different story. That’s when a wall cloud the size of Texas appeared out of nowhere and sent hundreds of beachgoers scrambling to shelter. First came the wind, then the sand, then the flying tents. Panic poured over us as we scrambled like ants in a thousand directions, not sure what to grab and what to let go. Eventually, we were able to dodge fugitive umbrellas and boogie boards and wrestle ourselves and our gear to safety.

Later, I opened God’s Word and read, “Then we will no longer be little children, tossed by the waves and blown around by every wind of teaching, by human cunning with cleverness in the techniques of deceit.” Thanks, God, for the visual aid.

Perhaps very soon, the evangelical Christian church in America might have far more in common with the church of Ephesus than we ever have had before. No longer is the sky clear and the breeze light. A wall cloud of culture looms above us and forces us to make decisions. Why do we believe what we believe? How do we love a world that no longer loves us? And how do we make the Church effective in this culture?

Paul describes the church not as a collection of individuals worshiping and carrying out ministry programs, but tied together as one body. This body has arms and legs and muscles and bones. Every part of this body is created to function together. We’re not meant to wander in aimless confusion. We’re not meant to crouch silently, paralyzed from fear. Instead, we’re meant to act and go where our head, Jesus Christ, takes us.

And so God gives us all special gifts, spiritual gifts, to help us function as this body. He gives us leaders (apostles and prophets and evangelists and pastors and teachers) to train or equip us for work in ministry. Ministry is our job, not just theirs. Everyone gets to play.

If together we use the gifts God has given each of us for the building up of one another, we then cease to be like children and become mature, a body of believers exercising discernment and knowledge and (above all else) love. We are unified in our mission and our efforts, because we are one body acting solely at Christ’s direction.

It is this body with Christ as its head that God intends to accomplish His work on Earth. We are not a collection of passive believers who lean on the “resident experts” to do God’s will. We are not a group of individuals who go to church to simply to have our needs fulfilled. Instead, we each have a part to play for the good of the whole.

Then when the storms come, and they will, we will find our strength and our purpose in the One who uniquely gifts us and pulls us together. He will direct our path, and we will go there together.

Reflection Questions

We often pray that God will help us as individuals: God help me with this, or God help me do that. How often do we pray for God to help our church?

Do you know your spiritual gifts? Do you know the spiritual gifts of those around you?

Should we explore our spiritual gifts when choosing a service role in our church or our community?

How are spiritual gifts different than Christian roles (i.e. things we are all called to do in the course of our walk with Christ)? How are they different from natural talent?